Around Atton's New York, All Day Tuesday

[suitably_heroic]

So, Cade was still here. And... damned lucky that Dane had the patience of a saint (or at least a guy with crappy coping methods and a history of poor boundary-setting), or he probably would've been out on his ass by now. Hell, Jack had thought about throwing him out on his ass a few times now. The crossing the streams was just kind of weird.

And Cade could be kind of a jackass.

(But he'd also missed the guy and having him here was a good reminder of their misspent youth and space he really was getting old, wasn't he?)

Anyway.

It was show day. And Jack-slash-Atton hadn't slept a wink last night, so he'd just be on the floor of the living room, where he'd been for the last couple of hours. Ugh.

[[ for that guy and some ocd ]]

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Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

Cade nodded. "Mine was the opposite," he said quietly. "Grew up Jedi, changed as a teen."

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

"Sounds like a confusing time," Atton commented.

Or like a hard one, but he didn't want to push Cade too hard.

Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

Hugely traumatizing. Having never told anyone traumatizing. Orphaned Skywalkers were a tradition, though, right?

"I don't like to think about it," Cade said.

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

"Yeah, it's not the most fun thing in the world."

Jack drained his cup of coffee.

"My parents screwed me up before the war ever could," he said idly. "So when the war did happen, I was a loyal little soldier who didn't like talking about what was going on with me, so they could do whatever they wanted to me and I would find some way to put it all on me."

Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

"Healthy," Cade said. "Definitely nothing to wake up you at ridiculous times of night."

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

Jack shrugged. Not that he figured Cade could see it. "I've been thinking about it," he said. "How much of my life has been about living up to someone else's ideals and expectations." He set his cup down. "When it wasn't just about trying to keep my head above water, anyway."

Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

"And here helps you keep your head up?" Cade asked.

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

Jack snorted. "The Atton Rand you met on Fandom was me keeping my head up," he said. "This has been more about me trying to do some secret third thing."

He pushed up to his feet. "You know. Maybe not withdraw into maintenance mode or throw myself into a physical and/or emotional meat grinder every week because of what I think I owe someone else."

Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

"Every week is too many weeks," Cade decided.

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

"Agreed!" Atton said, and padded past him into the kitchen. "Okay, one, you should come to the show tonight. Two, coffee?"

And maybe he'd figure out some way to poke Cade in the issues that wouldn't trigger a shutdown in the process.

Re: Morning

[shutupandkillsomething]

"First the coffee, then the concert," Cade decided.

Re: Morning

[suitably_heroic]

"It's like seven or eight in the morning," Atton said dryly. "That's usually the order they go in."

And then he busied himself with the coffee machine.