MCA #4, Monday Afternoon
Sep. 10th, 2018 02:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png)
At the start of the year, Atton had slipped up and made a mistake. And then he'd made that mistake about a hundred times worse by not handling it well, and he'd known he wasn't handling it well, but-- look. He wasn't known for handling anything well.
Least of all mistakes that, just one universe of possibilities over, might not have been a mistake at all but the start of something good.
But he'd already lost one friend for good. Losing another one to his own karking insane levels of dysfunctionality was, he was beginning to realize, a stupid idea. And so on Monday afternoon he settled down on the couch, and summoned all of his courage, and called.
"...Please don't pick up someone please walk in right now something..."
... baby steps.
[[ open, but expecting one. ]]
Least of all mistakes that, just one universe of possibilities over, might not have been a mistake at all but the start of something good.
But he'd already lost one friend for good. Losing another one to his own karking insane levels of dysfunctionality was, he was beginning to realize, a stupid idea. And so on Monday afternoon he settled down on the couch, and summoned all of his courage, and called.
"...Please don't pick up someone please walk in right now something..."
... baby steps.
[[ open, but expecting one. ]]
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:23 pm (UTC)Which lasted about a second, since she figured if Atton was actually calling her there was a good reason. She even managed to keep that note of doubt out of her voice when she said, "Hello."
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:29 pm (UTC)Poodoo.
"Hi, Si," he said weakly. "Is this a bad time? I can call some other time, that's fine."
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:35 pm (UTC)She wouldn't assume he was calling just to say hi.
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:40 pm (UTC)A stark fact he'd been trying really hard not to tell anyone, but on the phone with Sia, he was helpless thinking about anything else to bring up.
It was, on so many levels, why he was calling.
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:50 pm (UTC)"I'm so sorry," she said, and knowing better than to ask if he was okay, asked, "What happened?"
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Date: 2018-09-10 12:55 pm (UTC)He ran his fingers through his hair.
"We got into a fight with them," he said. "I went to save the latest batch of batteries, she went up to the cockpit... she must've hit self-destruct..."
He didn't know. He hadn't been there.
That bugged him, too.
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:12 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 01:15 pm (UTC)"She blew me out the airlock," he said lightly. "Can't say I can recommend the cold of space as a travel destination."
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:19 pm (UTC)"Wait, are you okay?"
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:22 pm (UTC)Poodoo. The last thing he needed was for Mira-related feelings to come into this already-difficult conversation.
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:44 pm (UTC)But then, after a moment, she had to probably make it worse. "Did you call just to let me know about Mira?"
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:51 pm (UTC)"...No," said Atton, with all the bravery in his body. "I, uh. Wanted to apologize. You know. For the, uh, stuff."
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Date: 2018-09-10 01:58 pm (UTC)She honestly wasn't sure what he meant, partly because she hadn't thought he ever would apologize.
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Date: 2018-09-10 02:02 pm (UTC)It spoke to how difficult this was that Atton actually had to pause and calculate.
"...Eight months."
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Date: 2018-09-10 02:23 pm (UTC)"You haven't really been around at all for the past eight months," she did after a moment.
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Date: 2018-09-10 02:25 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 02:28 pm (UTC)She said it nicely, but it wasn't like she wasn't still hurt over it.
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Date: 2018-09-10 02:33 pm (UTC)"Yeah, that's also what I was getting at," Atton said. "The whole... thing."
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Date: 2018-09-10 03:37 pm (UTC)Seriously, did not expect this today.
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Date: 2018-09-10 03:58 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 04:02 pm (UTC)To be fair, Vitor thought that about everyone.
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Date: 2018-09-10 04:04 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2018-09-10 04:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 04:22 pm (UTC)"Just you. Feel special."
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Date: 2018-09-10 04:52 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 05:51 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 05:58 pm (UTC)Ah, well. Atton had known it couldn't last.
"I don't want to lose another friend," he said, "And that's me being completely honest with you."
For once.
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:02 pm (UTC)It was best not to talk about the reasons why she thought that'd happened, probably.
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 08:17 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 08:22 pm (UTC)He knew he was a living disaster area. He just usually got to ignore just how much of a disaster he really was.
"I probably owe you a drink."
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:26 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-10 08:29 pm (UTC)Space, he hoped he wasn't making a mistake here all over again.
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:35 pm (UTC)"When's good? I can usually time visits along with my travel schedule, as long as someone can cover for me."
And then if it was weird, she could leave.
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:40 pm (UTC)He wasn't sure how long he could afford to be on a break, considering. Still.
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Date: 2018-09-10 08:45 pm (UTC)No pressure.
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Date: 2018-09-11 04:52 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2018-09-11 10:54 am (UTC)That was completely honest, too. Maybe it might still be weird for a while, maybe it wouldn't, but it was a start.